1  %title 14th September 2018 at 01:09
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 3  %date 2018-09-13 01:09
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 5  i feel like i once again reached the stage where i was able to let go of my suffering. something xlicked for me at bouldering on Tuesday and I vividly remember thinking "see, it doesn't have to be so bad" and feeling like a huge burden was dropped. I pictured a ball and chain falling.
 6  At bouldering this week I was able to do the purple climbs quite well. I'd say I'm able to do about half of them now, maybe still a little less. next week i want to do at least one black one. I think being able to do the purples boosted my confidence which in turn helped with my depression. 
 7  Because of this my mood has been excellent and my productivity levels somewhat high. After finally getting Tanu's website online (messing with nginx was a nightmare and felix helped me out) I have no undertaken my first real freelance project! I'm charging $35 an hour and building a WordPress site for a colleague, whose name is Kenedy. I've also restructured taskwarrior to be more appropriate and less long and moved things to the other tiddlywiki file, proj. as a sort of reference to where i am with my things. This has helped and im excited to work on my first real project. If I make more than $300 from it I'll be quite happy. 
 8  in more fun news im now looking into buying a dev machine. originally i wanted a switch, but i thought about it some more and I dont want one yet. i dont really have time to game much anyway, and after watching dunkeys video I kinda caught the metroid bug (especially since I wanted to play hollow knight more than anything) so now I'm playing through metroid zero mission on my psp and after that I'll probs play symphony of the night. 
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10  i feel satisfied with myself and I want to keep going. i believe in myself and want to work hard and keep trying my best because that's all i can do.