1  %title 5th November 2018 at 00:44
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3  %date 2018-11-04 00:44
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5  ive been depressed again today and it sucks. i just want to sleep the day away and hate being awake. i didnt really get any studying done but i managed to print out all the slides after much effort. heck, i didnt even manage to get all the slides printed, i had to skip the first part (Information Retrieval for my Document Analysis exam tomorrow) because I wasnt able to get it to be readable with more than one slide per page, something really funky going on that i dont know what.
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7  I was gonna toot about how i dont know how to behave normally anymore, because i was so stoned yesterday and couldnt come up with things to say. but even generally i play the "so excite" card for super mundane things all the time because its the polar opposite of when im depressed and even truly fantastical things are meaningless and dont elicite any joy. I dont know why i feel this way, and probs being more comfortable with myself would fix it?? can you even fix something spawend by depression? i wonder. 
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9  i was wishing for a laptop with a split keyboard design kinda like the atrieus. that would be cool. i really like split keyboards theyre dope. but its never gonna happen haha.