1  %title 3rd March 2019 at 03:52
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 3  %date 2019-03-02 03:52
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 5  i cant sleep at all so i decided to come back and write more because there's a lot on my mind hahahah. i actually wanted to write a blog post about going ~phoneless for a month, or at least get it started in the hopes that it would tire me but I read Anushka's email again and still just cant believe it hahahaha omg. i really am a great catch. Anshul and Ishan (I really like him) have taken to calling me a Tiger and I totally dig it hahaha. i can totally relate to crawling around in the background watching carefully, until im totally ready to strike, and then I rarely miss and everyone is amazed. okay maybe that's enough feeling myself because some fucking girl (who's probably going to break my heart anyway) sent me a fricking email HAHAHAH. hahahaha i just browsed facebook again because of her. god she's actually gorgeous. she's gonna fuckin wreck my heart i can already tell. but im kinda excited by that? its been a long time since ive been excited about a girl after having met her more than once. its fun and im honestly just here for the ride. god im such a loser.
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 7  ...and i just remembered the point i opened facebook was for the party im planning on throwing this saturday. i did it! i only got distracted and went anushkas facebook after that. im hopeless!!! also she knows divya!!!!! how crazy is that, i get totally similar vibes from the both of them. they went to the prague international school together. that place seriously does something to people, its very interesting. 
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 9  ...and then i ended up on charlys facebook page and ughhhh the heart strings are pulling in full force tonight. its fucking 5am now and i really should go to sleep, but i feel like i havent got my alone time so i havent yet. i also think i personally am an example against jj's theory of women only fucking upwards, (and hell, even cammy is) because (not only because im feeling myself for getting an email from almost certainly the hottest girl at the party, oh god i still cant believe it whats wrong with me, why am i such a hopeless romantic) even though im a ctach and a half, both her and charly were wayyyy out of my league. they could basically have any boy they wanted. and yet they chose me. hahahahahah, im just fucking awesome.
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11  okay enough feeling myself time to go the fuck to sleep, hopefully that'll be enough to make me fall asleep, though perhaps using the computer was a bad idea. i guess we'll find out