1  %title 24th January 2020 at 02:53
 2  :jrnl:
 3  %date 2020-01-30 02:53
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 5  its been 10 days since my last entry and im still exactly where i was. smoking weed and playing video and hanging out with my friends. i want it to change but talk is so cheap. thats a phrase ive been repeating a lot to myself lately. talk is cheap. i think for a long while i blamed every other thing i could. cammy, my friends, weed. but im finally able to take responsibility for myself. not that it matters because talk is cheap. 
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 7  i mean i shouldn't be so hard on myself, (god it feels dumb writing this out, this is the second time im writing this) since i did write some code analyzing my habits data. 
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 9  but its not enough. i dont know what would be enough. i cant help but feel like theres something more. 
10  and its gnawing at me. 
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12  i know on one hand this is the last time i have total freedom and nothing to do. but i cant help but be dissapointed by my output.