1  %title 23rd September 2020 at 23:10
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 3  %date 2020-09-23 23:10
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 5  looks like we made it to day 2 of this streak, hah. I wonder how many times that's happened before. 
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 7  i've been struggling with my sleep lately. i can't fall asleep for hours on end while laying in bed, and it's driving me crazy. I'm not sure what's causing it because I'm very tired by the time I do get to bed. It's really frustirating. Perhaps it's work. I have been struggling a little with it, if im being honest though it's entirely my fault because I don't work when I should. I find it quite difficult to focus in the mornings, and so I just faf around for hours on end, annoyed that im not working, but not annoyed enough to actually work. and then the night comes around and i've calmed down and can focus and start to work, and at least today it turned out all my worries were unfounded. the task i was to do was a lot easier than i imagined. it's annoying because this is something i've noted before, that if im in break mode just enjoy break mode, and then do work lately. but instead im unable to totally enter break mode, and im not working either and that limbo state really annoys me. i need to figure out what to do about that. 
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 9  the other actually cool thing that i did today was get inked! im so happy with the way it came out. it's interesting because while writing the above section i was pondering the power of words. that by writing down that i dont like it i'd make it true. and the truth is that there is a part im not entirely sold on. it's the colored bit just below the back of my neck. i think it's not quite perfect, or fleshed out enough, but not in execution but idea form. the cresent moons on my arm are total 😍 vibes though, i totally love it. overall i had a great experience with getting tattoo'd and i look forward to getting my next one. 
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11  i keep thinking about doing a no-new-media week or two, where i just go through all my old stuff and either consume it, or at least categorize it. i was telling jxN today that I could very easily spend all day on my laptop just scrolling the internet not doing a whole lot without too much trouble. i have soo many feeds. not that i think this is a bad thing, being swept up in the internet does allow me to do things and be in touch with stuff i would otherwise miss. but it also does come at a cost. like i always say, balance. and right now the balance is not where i want it to be.