1  %title resigning from threatdefence
 2  :jrnl:reflect:work:
 3  %date 2021-06-01 00:18
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 5  today i handed in my resignation and boy what a trip
 6  zlatko kept calling me talented and smart and all this shit, and the sad part is though i think he really meant it, i find it hard to believe. he told me to ask myself why i was still kept on at threatdefence given all the problems ive caused at TD. i mean maybe he and vlad see the good in me and believe i could be an asset, but they didnt really treat me that way and i was so sick of it. i felt like i was stagnating in programming and devops, even though i was learning filebeat and logstash i didnt want to go all in on them career wise. 
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 8  having now put down what i dislike about TD its pretty clear to me that the things i dont like about it, is basically everything. the only thing working there was good for was stockholm syndrome, being in the security industry (potential end goal career?) and possibly earning heaps of money next year if i wasnt a collosal fuck up. i guess also feeling bad about not keeping my word. i think thats what i feel worst about, not keeping my word. idrc about the money, and i barely work in the security industry, anymore than ill be a doctor in health tech. so fuckit. i think that ive made the right choice. im really excited about working at cubiko
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10  the bad at threatdefence:
11  - poor relationships
12  - lots of old garbage fires im sick of, poor tech stack
13  - not learning new python/development skills
14  - not doing devops/security work except by proxy
15  - dont want to go to sydney
16  - not getting paid much 
17  - always stressed af
18  - telegram gets flooded