1  %title Is this it?
 2  :jrnl:
 3  %date 2021-08-30 11:32
 4  
 5  its been just over a year since i moved to brisbane and so much has changed. i feel so much older, and less filled with light. my friend group here fell apart, and i hold myself partially responsible. my friend group in canberra hates me. 
 6  all i do is work. i hate it. 
 7  i cant help but wonder if this is just it, the rest of my life
 8  passing me by, because im too tired, too miserable
 9  
10  i thought writing this down would invigorate me to do better
11  but now im just sad
12  
13  learning to let go, repeatedly