1  %title Lost in my own Weeds
 2  :jrnl:gratitude:
 3  %date 2022-08-30 17:37
 4  %update 2022-08-30 22:44
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 6  Feeling a little overwhelmed today? Mostly by my own projects, I seem to have lost track of them a little bit. Hmm, maybe not so much lost track of them, but feeling overwhelmed by them? Or maybe just a bit lost? 
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 8  It's hard for me to say what exactly is causing this anxiety but something certainly is, or at least was. Fixing up a bug in [[220829-1803|Dhyan]] helped stem some of that anxiety at least. I think part of it may be related to my frustration with [[220828-1308|Blender Addon]] not working the way they're allegedly supposed to and carrying that frustration into general anxiety about my projects. I guess lately some of them have been non-computer-y and not having written much new stuff here can account for some of that
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10  If anything, I think that's part of it. The sprawling vastness of [[index|Kitaab]] is part of this anxiety. I feel like I'm getting lost in my own weeds. I think for one I need to develop a better habit of linking things between each other. I would say I write things down with reasonable frequency (though this is also up for debate), but I don't really link between the pages I work on, so they end up mostly being fragments. The other I need to figure out is better tooling. Auto-generated backlinks would be a start, but there's got to be other things I can use. I did implement recent files (`<space>zf`, incase you forgot again), but I don't appear to use it much, and it also isn't quite enough. Search by tag would be useful too. 
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12  This is inevitably going to lead to me working on my website again isn't it? 😅
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15  = Today I am grateful for =
16  - Having an understanding team and calling in sick just to chill (even though I may be allergic to my cat)
17  - Seeing Gareth
18  - Cooking lots of yummy food for the next few days, and still having more things I want to make (falafel, lettuce wraps)
19  - Dee for being sweet, cute and kind, even though there was nothing in particular today
20  - Finding out Imoh was under Niko's bed the whole time while we were scared that she got out and ran away