1  %title The one where we break 
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3  %date 2022-11-15 15:53
4  %update 2022-12-07 16:34
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6  I finally spoke to Dee about wanting to take a break. Actually, that's not exactly what happened. She spoke about how the uncertainty was kinda the root cause of her illness (funny how I never mentioned that in any of my other entries?). I finally broke down and told her I wanted to take a break. She told she doesn't do breaks. Either you're in or out, she says. I've been dissociating on the floor and distracting myself. Though there is a breath of fresh air I taste too. I guess I don't know how to come back from that, regardless of if I want to or not. Which in turn makes the decision not much of a decision. 
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8  I don't know how I feel about that.