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6  Can't sleep again. Sarayu said she was mad at me, presumably something during her wedding and it's bringing back all the feelings i had during then. i was so upset i got kicked out of the dance at her wedding. and then parul was mad at me the next day, and i was qust not having a good time that whole trip. and now i'm feeling so fragile. so alone. i want to hide away into a spiky ball so no noe can approach me. feel so afraid. like i'm not living life the way i'm supposed to. like i won't satisfy my soul. outFeeling awfully self destructive lately. really want to watch something burn again. :(
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