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3  %date 2025-12-11 10:18
4  %update 2025-12-11 14:52
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6  Still feeling manically unhappy. Not even just sad, actively unhappy, and I still cannot pin point why. Part of me thinks I need to take a break from bsky, it certainly isn't helping checking it all the time. Some other part of me thinks I should take time off work, but I'm not sure that'll change anything. Perhaps searching, or rather landing, another job would reinvigorate me, but I'm not convinced it will help. 
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8  I wrote recently about how I feel like I'm being infected by the culture and people I surround myself these days. I feel myself regressing into old habits. Wearing my arrogance as a shield, like how I used to when I was depressed. I feel meaner than I was, even at the start of this year. I judge things much harsher from my own perspective, have become more ruthless in my cost-benefit analysis.